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Monday, November 19, 2012
Meditation Monday #17
Today is day 167 of meditating. Meditation continues to be a part of my morning devotions with few exceptions. Friday continues to be a difficult morning for me to meditate before I depart for my weekly appointment, but I did get it in this week! :)
Some of the bigger changes I've notived include (and continue to be, in some instances): many fewer occurrances of emotional eating. I find that I often feel quite hungry and realize it's been a while (3+ hours) since I last ate and that maybe I should do something about that. If anyone would've told me that such a thing would happen as a result of anything I did, much less become increasingly consistent as I continued, I wouldn't have beleived them.
I've also noticed that remaining silent is becoming easier. Now, I used to think that the only folks who read what I blabbed about here were those who knew me... but since I've seen people coming in to take a peek from all over the world, I think this must no longer be the case. To that end, I must share that I'm a girl made of words. My primary love language is Words Of Affirmation... I've always had a tendancy toward verbal vomit and then wondering later what it is I said that I should've have... I believe that I express myself better and more fully in writing than any other way.... Also, in case you haven't met me or interacted with me for longer than, say, the last 5 years, or so... I used to be the kind of person who ALWAYS had a retort for any and everything anyone else might say/do. I still do... but, for the most part, I just don't speak them any more. Sometimes, as has happened lately, I don't even bother to fully think them. What's the point? I've realized most folks don't care what I have to say anyway.
I guess that's one of the reasons I blog. At least, if someone reads here, it's because they want to and care to some degree or another. So, although I don't communicate openly or as frequently as I might prefer, for many reasons, at least I can share more here than anywhere else in my world - with FEW exceptions. But I sure am thankful for those few women who have proven trustworthy... who I consider my dear friends. They are treasures beyond measure!
By the way, I continue to focus on Kirtan Kriya. I'm still doing the 31 minutes of that almost every day. I also spend a few quiet minutes after I finish meditating and before I pray... so sort of let it sink in. I would like to get the addiction meditation back in on a daily basis... so we'll see how that goes. Just in case you'd like more specifics (because I would, if I were you): I wake up and read my Book of Mormon... usually just 1 chapter. Then I read a few Chapters in The New Testament to total around 25 minutes or more of reading. Then I meditate, which takes around 34 minutes, then I rest quietly for another 7-15 minutes, then I pray (which can be anywhere from 2-15 minutes).
I've been trying, since last week, to tithe on each day. By that I mean, I'm trying to spend 2 hours and 40 minutes (or more) each day with God, focused on Him and doing what He has directed me to do alone and in worship. I've only ever thought of this daily tithe in passing, but for some reason it seems very important for me to do NOW. So, I try to get over an hour in each morning because in the evening I feel like i'm falling asleep reading and I don't want to do that. Obviously, given this, I need to increase my morning time spent if the above outline is accurate. It is, but only in minimums. For the most part, I do spend more time reading than I've listed above.
If you'd like to share any of your own meditation experiences/insights, I sure would like to hear them. Or any feedback about my own experiences, of course. I just enjoy comment from those who read my Words (by this girl made of words). ^_^