It is what it is. And what IS it? Well, a whole lot to me, but not all that much to many.
Can I be any more vague? Perhaps. Perhaps not.
I've learned a great deal, recently, about what IS... also, a great deal about how much I can actualize/change in my little world. I guess "can" is different from "allowed to," really. So, perhaps I should rephrase: I have learned a bit about what I am allowed to change and how very limited my choices are in some areas... if I desire to be obedient, of course. And, since I do... I am limited.
Limits are, generally, good. I can see this clearly in a logical way. Not so much emotionally.
So I come to see ever more clearly my cross. This whole disciple thing is pretty much a whole lotta torture at times. *sigh* I'm a whiner. Obviously. Too bad you don't understand the details... you might commiserate... or, at least, radiate compassion toward/about me. But, alas, I am learning I must needs stop sharing as is my nature to do.
I have been learning much about what, in my nature, I must leave behind. No easy task... especially when many parts I am meant to leave out are parts I considered of value.