Meditation Monday #62: Wave Pendulum and Life

Another week of daily meditation completed.  Doesn't it feel GOOD to regularly do something you've set your mind to do?  It just feels good to me.

Okay... so it's taken me a while to actually get INTO this... I hope you find it worth the wait!

So, if you haven't viewed any of the pendulum's I shared, please make sure to do so before you read more... or go back to view to better understand the connections I'll make.  I hope you will and then tell me if you see what I'm saying AND what connections YOU see/make!

I really like watching the snakey portions of the wave.  I think it's my favorite... it feels really smooth and even and orderly and... well, it just feels RIGHT to me.

The first time I watched any of these videos (recently-ish), I could only see the order in the snakey-like portions of the wave.  In between each formation of the snakeyness, it just felt totally chaotic to me.  Unattractive, uncomfy, messy and definitely not the best part.  I pointed out the easy order of the snakeyness and the uncomfy chaos of the messy parts and he said something like, "I don't see it that way at all.  I see that all the parts have order.  It's just a different kind of order in the parts that aren't snake-like."

Well, that helped to change my perception, for sure.... and in far more than just viewing a Pendulum Wave!  What a gift to me.

I think it's important to point out to myself and you that my discomfort with the parts I saw as chaotic was totally subjective.  It was completely opinion based.  All of it does, of course, have order.  There isn't emotion in the swinging of those balls.  And, really, if we think about it hard enough, we'll recognize that there is perfect order even in the chaos of emotions gone awry.

VW Bug

The snakeynesses are easy for me to enjoy watching because they are smooth and rounded.  My eye likes this sort of thing, generally.  My favorite car is a VW Bug.  I'm relatively sure there is not a single model of that car that has many boxy-sort-of-parts.  My husband, on the other hand, prefers angular trucks and SUVs.  Yes, yes we are quite opposite in very many ways so this difference between our preferences in vehicle shape is very representative.  I think that's also why the parts that are not snakey were so obviously still ordered to and for my husband.  They are more boxy, most of them!

The kind of squareness my husband would sure love!

I've realized, through this tiny seismic experience, a larger paradigm shift.  I can now see how the times in my personal seasons when I'm not able to *make* my schedule what I would prefer... well, I've been able to see more order in the routines than I could before.  I've also realized that *fighting* to get back to what I prefer doesn't help the process or change of seasons.  In fact, the change in my personal seasons feels like it has sped up since I've released the *fight* and am striving to walk toward something better instead of fighting to go back to what I liked.  I wrote about this sort of thing before.... and here.

Meditation Monday #63

I don't particularly like yoga, myself. Still, I do believe that yoga, like many other forms of meditation is a tool. The user of the tool determines the result of the tool's use.

Might the practice of yoga influence the practitioner to think in ways that the originators did? Probably. Is that bad an wholly unChristian? I think not. Why? Well, because I believe that ALL truth can and should and will be circumscribed into a whole unit. All truth fits together to reveal an awesome whole.

I know that the beast and his prophet will use this truth as a way of lying to and convincing lots and lots of people and creating the one world religion of humanism (or whatever)... but the: darkness precedes the light precedes the darkness precedes the light... and so forth, well, none of it decreases the truth that the man or woman determines the tool and not the other way around.

Those who believe guns are evil and bad are fooled... the gun is neither good nor bad. The gun is a good. The holder of the gun determines how the gun is used. So, too, with yoga and any other form of meditation. The person who is a righteous (striving to be righteous) follower of Christ will process the energy that is always around us more efficiently into Light by way of their Faith and using the tools available for that processing. Prayer is one of those tools. Meditation is another. Yoga is another.

Can it be used for negative and darkness? Certainly. Just as a gun can be used by a murderer to kill... or by a loving man to protect his family.

The tool does not define the man or woman. The tool may bring the true heart forward, but does not change the person.

jmo, of course... but I do think it is Truth.

One quote from the article (which is a quote of a Yogi explaining what yoga is), "What do we join through yoga? Two eternal beings: God, the Infinite Being, and the individual spirit that is finite being. In essence they are one, and according to yogic philosophy all spirits originally dwelt in consciousness of that oneness."

Doesn't this truth mean the same thing that we can find as we study the Bible? I mean, Jesus taught us that we are part of God. It's quite readily available to most Christians that we were once a thought in God's head. So... if yoga is joining the two who are one anyway... well, seems like it's very Christian because that's what we're meant to be doing with prayer, isn't it? I mean... we're supposed to be submitting our Will to God so that we can fulfill His purposes for us. The only gift we have that He has given, but will never remove from us, but that He wants very much is our agency... our ability to choose Him... or not.

Well, seems like, by the definition I quoted, that the purpose of yoga is to become one with God, with the further explanation that they believe what we do: we were once actually One.

Meditation Monday #61: Prosperity (continued from Thursday)

I was able to complete another near 4am meditation.  The only problem: it's from the wrong end of wakefulness still.  I'm having a difficult time with falling asleep, so I was up late enough that I meditated for my new day before I went to sleep for a few hours.  Still, I'm grateful for the blessing of meditating when all is quiet.  It's definitely easier to focus!

Prosperity has been much on my mind since I read Felice Austin's post about her Daddy being rich.  I came to realize something more completely as a result of it.  I shared about that just this past Thursday.

In my life, realizations have come with increasing speed and clarity as I get older.  However, most of them have also come with tumultuous emotional and mental readjustment.  One would think that is to be expected, however, given my more recent experiences, I now know this is not the case.  You see, things in me have been changing seamlessly and smoothly with increasing consistency.  I still struggle with many things that have been part of my journey for as long as I can remember.  The thing that's different is how I feel when I realize a change.  I don't feel like my whole world is falling apart.  I just sort of "realize" the new thing and feel grateful for it.

For instance... back to prosperity.  My husband and I have struggled financially for the majority of our time together and the whole of our marriage.  I can clearly see as I view the past through hindsight (which is, of course, always 20/20), that there were times we should NOT have struggled if we had been wise.  But I truly believe we were incapeable of being truly wise because we were bound by our own choices AND generational curses pertaining to prosperity.  I believe I have learned the name of the generational curse with which we were bound... it is called: a belief of lack.  We believed, no matter how much we were shown the opposite (and I know were were shown!), that we did not have enough.

I believe my effort to consistently meditate (and use the Prosperity meditation among others) is changing my brain in two ways.  First, my brain is  growing willingness to accept prosperity.  Second, my brain is become an attractor or magnet of prosperity and abundance.  I'm not exactly sure how the tool works to accomplish this, I started to sort of see some ways it may work while meditating one day last week, but the fact that it works is awesome and wonderful!  I highly recommend meditation (and especially Kundalini Yoga)!

Heavenly Father has blessed me to see very clearly when unexpected gifts of money or work or new clients or new opportunities come to me, that He is moving me toward financial prosperity.  I have received many of these gifts recently and feel to praise the Lord for His generosity and endless supply!  I'm so grateful for His perfect and generous provision!

Meditation Monday #60: Allowing Change

I was able to meditate daily this past week.  Praise the Lord!  It was still a chaotic week, especially the first part of it.  I'm sure the fact that my preferred routine was still off track made it more chaotic than it would've been otherwise.  Still, I was able to complete one meditation near 4am, which was nice!  I hope to get into a more regular habit of meditating at that time as I think it would make my days flow so much more nicely!

My thoughts have been much focused on changing.  Changing my brain and changing my behaviors.  I can definitely see that there are changes happening, which is a wonderful gift and blessing!  I mean, sometimes it seems like nothing is changing at all, which can be a relief... but then I look at how far I am from where I desire to be and wish that change would just HAPPEN.

Do you ever feel that way?

I'm working hard to make sure my prosperity meditation is 5 minutes or more each day.  This past week I was able to complete a few that were 11 minutes.  I know that my brain needs to change a lot concerning money, thus my goal for that particular meditation.  I really believe my brain IS changing.  Why?

Well, I used to feel really obsessed about doing bills.  I would do them every week... sometimes more than once a week.  I think it was probably more necessary to do so at that time as we didn't have a consistent paycheck, so it was really difficult for me to schedule out bills and whatnot.  Also, we had credit card debt at that time.  Thankfully we do not have THAT form of bondage any more!

My point is that I'm not as obsessive about dealing with money.  When it comes in as cash, I pay tithing and put the money away.  I just don't consider it much beyond that and looking at how my goals for money that comes in are progressing or not.  It seems rather small now that I'm writing about it... but it's a really big deal.  It's difficult to describe the tension I feel when doing bills... it's pure stress and it used to be even more than it is now.  The decrease is definitely discernable in both my body and my mind!

I'm so grateful for the tool that meditation is in my life to change my brain and enable me to move more quickly toward the kind of person I would like to be.  I know the difference, and the changes have increased... even though I still wish they were faster sometimes!

Do you need an attitude change pertaining to money?  I highly recommend meditation!

Meditation Monday #59: Almost Missed, but going strong

This last week was a bit more chaotic than has become my norm.  I missed walking each day which threw my daily schedule out o whack.  Not a good thing.  I definitely prefer my regular schedule to the way things went this past week.

Some of my thoughts while meditating:
-During one meditation, I had a great idea for a post I hope to sell to a blogger.

-Another day I was pondering on the oneness of everything (Mandlebrot Set-style).  In particular, I saw so clearly how we are just like the earth with our own sort of equator.  Our equator is not around our waist, though...  It is in line with our spine from the top of our head to the line in our bum, under and back up the front makes our equator.  This is very apparent to me as we finish out this winter choosing not to use any sort of heater more than hotspots, which are truly amazing pieces of technology!  You can purchase a couple HERE if you're interested.  They are reusable AND non-toxic, too, which is awesome.

-I was feeling particularly bloated and, really, fat another day last week.  During meditation I felt a challenge.  Basically, it was a question something like: "Would you be willing to stay fat if that was best for you and what God wanted?"  I've yearned to be thin the whole time I haven't been (I have been a couple times and really didn't think I was thin enough... definitely wasn't healthy enough).  Anyway... I felt this challenge and pondered on it for a moment while I meditated and then realized that YES, of course I would.  I hope that's not God's Plan for me, but if it is, I will accept it and choose joy through all of it.  I felt and feel unburdened somehow.  Very interesting, huh?

Meditation Monday #58: Overcoming habits that I'm releasing attachment to

This last week went well as far as meditation goes.  I was able to complete at least a short meditation each day.  Short means at least 19 minutes (if the timing is perfect and babygirl sleeps or plays happily the whole time).  Usually it's at least a few minutes longer than 19 because life happens!

Lately I've been noticing that I am performing habits that I feel very little attachment to... but feel stuck in the performance.  I've been working, very consciously, to allow myself to release many things/people.  Most of the releasing involves releasing a desire for things to be my way.  Let me tell you... that's a DIFFICULT thing for this planned to do!

Among the things I feel little attachment to, but still fall into the habit of is anger.  I've had this habit of anger for a very long time.  I believe it is among the generational curses I've agreed to before I entered this portion of my journey.  I desire to change relational interactions, yet feel stuck in the habits formed with others.  On one hand, I yearn to force the situation to be different RIGHT NOW... but when I've done that in the past, it simply hasn't stuck.

Kundalini Yoga has been changing me so seamlessly that I feel a great curiosity to see how things will progress.  I know anger is being leached out of my Spirit and Life.  I'm so unbelievably grateful!  I feel light and love filling in the vacated spaces of/in me.  So, my outward behaviors will certainly change (have already changed a LOT).  In one way, I'm anxious for it to happen NOW (of course... because I like things to get to the good fast, of course), but I'm willing to wait because I want things to improve for the long-term, not just for a little while.

If I've learned anything in my few years here, it is that for me to change permanently (or with any kind of REAL permanence) it often must be accomplished much more slowly than I would prefer.  I look forward to sharing (in a few weeks? months? year?) how things have changed!

Meditation Monday #57

It's so important for me to recharge myself each day and spend time in meditation and prayer.  I'm so thankful that Heavenly Father led me to the tool that is Kundalini Yoga.  It is so good for me!

Another week complete.  A new month begun.  I still can't get over (yet am relieved?) that it's February.  I wonder what will transpire next and wonder when some things I believe will yet come to pass will actually manifest.  AND how!

I've successfully completed daily meditation this week.  Mostly short ones, unfortunately.  I was able to do a couple days of 11 minute prosperity as part of my routine (current routine, anyway).  I enjoy all of it very much!

As for me, I'm coming to the close of one of mine, I think.  I'm considering extending it to an 80 day.  I think I *need* to, really, rather than starting a new 40 day challenge with another form.  I'll let you know about what I decide!  :)

Have you started a 40 Day Challenge yet?  If not, I hope you will.  Tell me about it!!

Meditation Monday #56

Praise the Lord!  Another week of daily meditating. I'm thrilled to be doing so consistently this time around.

I was even able to complete a LONG meditation just yesterday.  It felt SO nice!  This is NOT normal, but I'm so excited about it, I'm going to tell you ALL about it!  I started with an open, of course, then completed 7 minutes of the Sa Re Sa Sa meditation, 31 minutes of Kirtan Kriya, on to 4 minutes each of the two 'anger' forms I've been using, 7 minutes or Wahe Guru, 11 minutes of prosperity, and finished up with a Close.  My baby slept almost the whole time.  Pretty awesome, right!?  :)

Have you determined to begin a 40 day Challenge of your own?  I'd love to hear about it!

Don't these pictures just look TOTALLY serene!!?  I love them!



Meditation Monday #55

Yeay!  Another week of meditation complete here.

Have you begun a challenge of your own?  Have you been thinking about meditating?  I hope you answer YES to both!  It feel so very good to accomplish positive steps in a good direction!  I feel I am being transformed into something/someone wonderful!

Meditation Monday #54: again with FOCUS

My schedule is in flux lately and I've been feeling a bit more chaotic as a result.  I don't like it at all.  I much prefer the regular things happening at the regular time.  So interesting, that!  I never EVER would've imagined that I would say and truly feel such a thing, oh, 5 years ago... shoot, even 2 years ago!  I mean, I was uncomfy... but in a comfy way... with the chaos of my daily life.  Now, chaos is uncomfortably uncomfortable!  I think that's a REALLY good thing!  What do YOU think?  Are you uncomfortably comfy with chaos?

This past week I was able to meditate every day.  YEAY!  I was even able to complete a few LONG meditations.  One even had a half-hour Kirtan Kriya!  A couple have had longer-than-7 minute SaReSaSa forms and a couple longer than 3 minute Prosperity meditations!  I'm feeling very accomplished, could you tell?

My thoughts have been very much on my word for the year: Focus.  Also, I continue to think a lot about cycles and repetition of sameness or improving upward.  The Mandlebrot Set (MS) keeps coming up.  Just this last week I was able to talk about the MS three or more times!  Once with someone I've never spoken about it... THAT is always so exciting to me!!

 

 Nice picture for FOCUS, right?

Meditation Monday #53

I almost missed a day this last week!  I remembered right before I went to sleep, so made sure to do my forms.  I was even able to do a longer-than-usual Kirtan Kriya since babygirl was deep asleep!  :)  This is another week of every-day-daily meditation.  YEAY!!

That means I'm 2 weeks into my current 40 day Challenge (that I've had to restart twice before!).  I sure am hoping to complete it this time.

Cycles and seasons and systems have been forming with even greater clarity in my mind's eye and to my understanding.  It's amazing to realize how The Mandlebrot Set is manifested micro-cosmically as well as macro-cosmically!  I feel awed and amazed to realize new aspects of it.

Everything is a system.  A cell... it has all the different parts that do their different things.  An Atom... if we could truly understand/see, we would see that even electrons and quarks (and anything else that might come along that we perceive as smaller) have their own separate parts working together... basically controlled by a central intelligence for the individual system as well as an overarching one for the whole of the whole system.  It's wonderful and awesome!

As I meditate, especially using the SaReSaSa Meditation, I feel more understanding and awe about all of it.  Not just on the micro end, but on the macro, too.  It's amazing and awesome and... well, I just wonder how anyone could think it could all happen with such order and precision without intelligent design?  It's just beyond my ken.

Lately, my routine has been: open, SaReSaSa, anger, anger, Kirtan Kriya, prosperity, and close.  You can find four of those HERE.  I'm not doing the releasing anger/negativity linked from that post.  The anger meditations I'm using are included below and in the order I do them, too.  :)

Have you been meditating?  Are you experiencing anything particular/peculiar/unusual/good/bad... anything?  I sure am experiencing good stuff and hope you are, too!!!

Meditation Monday #52

Meditating has gone very well this last week.  I feel like something new has happened, but not really sure *what* it is.  It's like I've made it over a difficult pass and things are getting sorta easier?  I'm not really sure if that's it, though.

Basically, even when situations have been really troubling in the last week or so, I've not been very troubled.  Perhaps it's just this part of my circle/cycle (not feminine hormonal... more like the seasons referenced in the Bible).  I'm not sure.  But I feel pretty dang good.  And SO very thankful!!!

My routine lately has been: open, Sa Re Sa Sa, conquer anger, overcoming anger, Kirtan Kriya, Prosperity, close.  It's going very well... even with a longer meditation time.  I've been so impressed with my baby!  She's only 6.5 months old, but she is so sweet and patient!  She plays quietly during most of my meditations.  Sometimes she's asleep.  But usually, she is just SO patient and CONTENT.  SO very very content!  :)  I'm so grateful for her!

I've been thinking so much about seasons.  I guess, really, it's not so much thinking as it is SEEing... during meditation... especially Sa Re Sa Sa meditation.  I'm just seeing so clearly how things are in cycles and seasons and how appropriate it all is... how everything is a system and so very conncted even while seeming disconnencted or unconnected.  It's been really wonderful and liberating!  I'm hoping to put my thoughts into a better form so that it's not as much gibberish as this probably sounds.  As I mentioned, I'm feeling really good lately!  Praise the Lord!!!

Did you notice my button to the right?  I'm experimenting.  What do you think?

It looks like:

Meditation Monday #51

This last week went well.  I missed Sunday, though.  It was just a bit of a difficult weekend and I didn't take care of myself first.  That's how it happens most of the time when I miss my meditation for a whole day.  Pretty bummed about it because now I need to restart my 40 day challenge.  ahwell.  I'm sure I need it!

I was able to do a LONG meditation on Saturday.  An hour.  Baby slept almost the whole time, which is why I was able to spend so much time in the quiet of my mind.  Very nice.  I would probably be sad if that's all I had, but it's nice to have it when I can here and there.

Meditation Monday #50

I've been able to share meditation, the idea of Kundalini Yoga, with a few people in real life lately.  It's so exciting to hope that I might, just by sharing this awesome technology, help a few others to experience the changes I've enjoyed as a result of my meditation practice.  I sure do hope they feel the peace that has come to me.  Of course, it didn't happen after one experience with meditation.

Can you believe I've been meditating using Kundalini Yoga for 18+ months now?  Well, I can hardly believe it's been so long.  Exciting and wonderful!

I've had a very busy week and, as a result, I had less available time for meditation.  I didn't do Kirtan Kriya every single day last week.  I still did all of my 40 Day Challenge forms of meditating, though.  YEAY!!  :) So, I'm going strong!

Praise the Lord for turning this chaotic girl into a lady who is becoming consistent in lots of ways!!!

Meditation Monday #49

Still going stong, yall.  Are you meditating consistently?  If yes, what form do you use?  What do you love about it?  How long have you been at it?  What got you started?

As for me, I started another 40 Day Meditation Challenge, got sick, missed a day or two as a result of the illness, so started over.  I re-started this newest Challenge on December 2nd.  I'll finish it on January 10th.  My challenge this time is a bit more difficult than the previous ones.  I'm adding in a couple forms to the two "anger" forms I've been doing for a while now.  I'm adding Prosperity back in AND a new form... not sure what to call it, but the chant says Sa Re Sa Sa Sa Re Sa Sa Sa Re Sa Sa Sa Rung Hur Re Hur Hur Hur Re Hur Hur Hur Re Hur Hur Hur Hung.  The greatest difference I have experienced since adding in this last one is a HUGE spike in my experience of peace.  So, that's pretty amazing to me!  :)

This video is a yogi teaching the Sa Re Sa Sa meditation that I recently added in.  I strive to complete at least 5 minutes of this form.  It's awesome!



With the new forms, my meditation time looks something like this: open, Kirtan Kriya (7 minutes minimum), anger (3 minute minimum), anger (3 minute minimum), Sa Ray Sa Sa (above; 5 minute minimum), Prosperity (3 minute minimum), and close.  It's not always in that order, but most often it is.  I usually need to do the quiet forms (anger) so that my baby will stay asleep.  Not that she's always asleep when I meditate (because she's not), but when she is, I try to help her stay asleep as long as possible.  It certainly is easier to complete longer versions of each when she's asleep!

Can you believe it... my baby is 6 months old tomorrow!!!!?!!!  She's the most blessed of the bunch cause I've been meditating the whole time she was gestating and for the whole of her life (except for a random few days I've missed).  :)

Meditation Monday #48

I'm still going strong, yall!  :)  I haven't yet figured out what my new 40 day challenge will be.  I'm holding steady with the two conquering anger meditations, though.  Hoping for more drastic changes in that area of my development.  *sigh*

Are you meditating?

Meditation Monday #47

Another 40 day meditation challenge completed without fanfare.  Totally didn't realize it was already upon me!  I finished on the 13th.  I'm still doing the challenge form and I added another one in during the challenge (on November 3rd) that I'm going to continue for 40 days.  I'm working on figuring out what new form to begin a 40 day challenge on next.  If you have any suggestions (within Kundalini Yoga), I'm happy to hear them!

I'm excited that I'm well on my way to my second year meditating!  How time flies!  I encourage you to begin.  My baby (now 5 months) has patiently waited through many sessions.  It's amazing how it has worked even when I wondered if it could!

Meditation Monday #46

I'm sick.  I was sick yesterday.  I'm still meditating daily.  Most days it's the minimum of: open, 7 minute kirtan kriya, 3 minutes anger meditation, 3 minutes conquering anger meditation, close.  But I'm still DOing it!

Do you realize some of the time contraints in my life that I could (and did in the past) use as excuses for NOT doing meditation or other things that consume time and are good for our physical/spirit systems?  I'm a homeschooling Mama.  I have 5 children.  I am overweight (which means, in my experience of it and with others who are: I'm ALWAYS tired to a degree greater than "normal").  I am a business owner.  My husband is a Chef (which means he's not really around while awake  much).  My fifth child is 5 months old (I have meditated almost every day since she was 4 days old).

Very recently I learned the real definition of excuse.  Excuse: a well-planned lie.  Yep.  I'm working toward not using excuses.

Meditation Monday #45

I missed posting last week only because I lost track of time and days and stuff.  Sorry about that if you look forward to Meditation Monday!

So... over the past two weeks, I've continued meditating each day.  Only rarely am I able to do more than a 7 minute Kirtan Kriya.  I'm still only doing a 3 minute conquering anger meditation, but my prosperity meditation is often 5-11 minutes long.  I'm not really sure why, but my baby seems to mind that form less than any of the others!

I've been able to wake up super early (between 4 and 6am) 5 times in the last two weeks.  That's not great, but it is progress!  Especially considering how TIRED I've been lately.  Probably due to the increased sugar consumption as a result of two October birthdays.

Are you still meditating every day?  Are you going to start?  I'd love to hear!

 

You could do this for a few minutes each day!



Meditation Monday #44

Another week done and I'm still going strong, meditating each day.  Praise the Lord!  His mercy endureth forever!!!  He really is changing me and I'm so excited to see what else He will do!!!

This last week was exhausting.  I woke a few times quite early (around 5am) to make sure I was able to meditate nice and early.  I still haven't made it up before 5am, but I'm working toward my goal of changing to a consistent 4am meditation time.  :)  I'm quite okay that it will probably take a while to become consistent, but I'm pretty sure I will... and that's a wonderful feeling!

No real break-throughs this past week, per se.  Just continuing to feel better day by day... and being able to work consistently with the heavy load I have currently... well, that's HUGE for me!

I TOTALLY beleive this!