The Gift

To my dear Savior,
at this time of year,
the very best and only real gift I can give
is to choose each and every day to fully live
focused on them and their way for me
to work really hard and begin to see
how to fill myself with Their loving bright light
and shine it forth into the world so dark as to be like  night.

How do I fill myself full of his light and love, I wonder?
It's simple to follow His command yet simple doesn't mean easy, I've learned as a I blunder.
Simple to read His word each day
and pray in a whole-hearted child-like way.
Simple to hear His Will and, His Word, obey.
As I leave my Will upon the alter each and every day.
It flutters about and years to fly like a bird
Not content to obey His Word.
I recognize this for what it is, for sure:
the natural man a constant temptation and lure.

Each day I must remember my covenants through prayer
and study the scriptures like it's some kind of dare.
Focusing my mind, heart, and soul on Him,
otherwise my commitment will grow dim.
And this gift of me is worth very little
if I don't mind every jot and tittle.
For Christ has shown me the way
and though I will not arrive today
My agency combined with consistent efforts toward who He would have me be
are the only gifts precious enough for the One who is Three.

Once I'm able to collect some of His bright and loving Light,
How do I shine it forth into this world so dark as night!?
Could it be a smile?
Shared with everyone within a mile...
Could I help another?
For each and every one is my brother.
Might I step out of my comfort zone?
And help someone find Him who did Atone!
Yes, all that and so much more
the options are like a door...
You open one and there's always another
God's Love is even more perfect than that from our Mother.

He desires the gift of ourselves.
And as we give, He doesn't put it on some shelves.
He teaches us how to more and more perfectly give
how to more and more fully live.
For His work and His Glory
Are the real purpose of our life's story.

December 5, 2014

My Life

It is what it is.  And what IS it?  Well, a whole lot to me, but not all that much to many.

Can I be any more vague?  Perhaps.  Perhaps not.

I've learned a great deal, recently, about what IS... also, a great deal about how much I can actualize/change in my little world.  I guess "can" is different from "allowed to," really.  So, perhaps I should rephrase: I have learned a bit about what I am allowed to change and how very limited my choices are in some areas... if I desire to be obedient, of course.  And, since I do... I am limited.

Limits are, generally, good.  I can see this clearly in a logical way.  Not so much emotionally.

So I come to see ever more clearly my cross.  This whole disciple thing is pretty much a whole lotta torture at times.  *sigh*  I'm a whiner.  Obviously.  Too bad you don't understand the details... you might commiserate... or, at least, radiate compassion toward/about me.  But, alas, I am learning I must needs stop sharing as is my nature to do.

I have been learning much about what, in my nature, I must leave behind.  No easy task... especially when many parts I am meant to leave out are parts I considered of value.

So Very Pertinent Still Today

This article/talk http://www.lds.org/general-conference/print/1975/10/for-the-time-will-come-when-they-will-not-endure-sound-doctrine?lang=eng is so very pertinent today, yet it is a little bit older than me.  That's 36 years, yall!

I hope you'll take some time to read it and let me know what you think!