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Friday, August 26, 2011

Christian

I am one... a Christian, I mean.  My Faith is in Jesus Christ of Nazareth, born in Bethlahem, known as a Galilean, to Mary and Joseph.  Joseph was his earthly Father, while Heavenly Father was and is the Father of His body as well as His Spirit.  And so He, Jesus Christ, became God living as a human.

Jesus Christ is my Hope and my Light.  He is my Life.  As I keep Him in His rightful position in my life, even the heaviest burdens are bearable (because I am yoked with Him!).  Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer.  I know that without His Atonement, I could not have any meaningful Hope in or for the future.  WITH and because of His Atonement, even the worst that could happen to me in this life will not truly hurt me, in the eternal scheme of things, because my Hope is in Christ and His saving GOODNESS, Grace, and acts (The Atonement).

I love the Gospel of Christ!  It has brought all that is GOOD in my life to my knowledge and ability to feel.  Christ is what is good about me and who is most important to me.  Through His Gospel, I have come to acceptance of almost all things with which I previously struggled.  I know the few things I have not yet come to accept are things I will shortly be in complete acceptance of because I am striving in Christ to truly be His.  Beyond acceptance, I have come to Peace in and over many things with which I have struggled.  And even beyond Peace, I have come to happiness and even joy concerning some (perhaps even many) things that I should feel happiness and joy in and about, but which I could not prior to making Jesus Christ BIG in my life and putting Him in His correct place in my heart, mind, and life/actions.

The Gospel of Christ, as taught in the Bible, is (in my understanding, knoweldge, and experience with God's Word via the Holy Spirit (wich constitutes my Faith)) magnified and expounded upon in The Book of Mormon.  The Pearl of Great Price, Doctrine and Covenants, and Articles of Faith add additional Light to my understanding of Jesus Christ's Gospel.  I'm so grateful our Heavenly Father has given us so much of His Word that we may grow in knowledge and understanding of Him and His ways that we might become ever more like our Savior and our Heavenly Father.

I bear my testimony that The Church of JESUS CHRIST of Latter-Day Saints contains within it the greatest amount of Truth and Light available through any of the religions practiced on the face of the earth today.  I'm grateful that our Heavenly Father condescends to communicate to us via His Holy Spirit of truths which are necessary to our eternal salvation.

I bear this, my testimony, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Thankful Thursday, Week of August 18 through 24, 2011

Thursday, August 18, 2011:  I'm thankful for enjoyable busy days.  We went to the library, received free kids meal cards for each of the girls, went to McDonald's, enjoyed a surprise visit with one of our sweet Sister Missionaries, and went to a lovely Eagle Scout Court of Honor.  Exhausting, but wonderful, too.  The girls were lovin' the GO of the day.  (Not so much so for me with the love of GO, but glad they do!)  Rather, I GO because I love!  ;)

Friday, August 19, 2011:  I'm thankful for opportunities to show my appreciation and love, even if only by going somewhere to support someone (sweet party Kenyon!).

Saturday, August 20, 2011:  I'm thankful for my children's wonderful behavior at one of my Host Family's homes.  We completed the orientations for the Host Families as well as the Exchange Students and it went very well (all things considered, especially!).  What a gift and tender mercy of the Lord!

Sunday, August 21, 2011:  I'm thankful for the Sabbath day and the physical rest it sometimes provides.  And BOY! did I need it this time.  Nap AND early to bed!

Monday, August 22, 2011:  I'm thankful for a Monday at home to try to relax and rest in hopes of vanquishing the headache I've had for the last few days.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011:  I'm thankful for a 5th day of headaches, which remind me how WONDERFUL it is to have been so very healthy for quite a long period of time!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011:  I'm thankful for reduction in the pain in my head AND for the wonderful time had by all who participated in the 4-H meeting tonight.  Heather, you are amazing!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Day 3

Day three of the intense no-sugar fast, but actually day 8 total.

I think day three is always the hardest when trying to make changes.  Why is that?  I'm not sure.  Haven't checked into it.  But MAN!  My head has been aching and pounding like crazy the past few days.  Today it hasn't been as constant, but the moments of pain have been intense!

Why the pain?  Well, last Monday we started a 40 day augar fast; as a family.  The first 5 days, though, were kinda like what I'd been doing for myself already, except that I couldn't eat the hunny nut cherrios-type cereal we had and I couldn't make and eat anything with honey (like muffins, which I LOVE way too much!).  But we could all still have all the fruit we wanted.  Friday night was the end of that.  Saturday was all right, but did have the headache.

Sunday was quite okay.  Super tired and headache right behind my eyes.  AND my eyes hurt, but I think that's just from being so flippin' tired!

Today has been the rockin day.  The headache I've already mentioned.  The fatigue... one would think that after having a nap on Sunday and going to sleep at 10pm I would have had enough sleep.  But I suppose given the withdrawls from sugar that we're all going through at least a little bit... my body just wants to sleep and heal up.

Anyway... keep me in your prayers, if you think of it.  And Jess, Ria, Kat, Tea, and Jimmy, too (Jimmy by way of breastmilk, of course).  ^_^

Friday, August 19, 2011

What I Used to Be

I used to be a show it all, all the time, kinda girl.  Not physically in risque clothing, mind you.  But emotionally.  I used to "say it like it IS," or, in reality, like it was to me.  My truth had to be said at the expense of all else.  I had to say what I needed to say in and of myself.

This problematic behavior still troubles me, but not nearly as much as it did in the past.  And when it creeps out, it's really more as a result of forgetting to guard my mind and tongue than with a feeling of "this opinion of mine, personally, must be shared, come hail or high water."

But, I think, the Lord has taken this personal weakness and turned it to His Glory and to support His purposes.  I used to be unable (or unwilling, probably, is more the truth) to control my mouth in support of and profession of my thoughts, considerations and opinions.  Now I feel compelled to NOT control my mouth in profession of God's precepts, principles and truths.

I used to be open with any and all about everything with which I was dealing and/or struggling.  I would monopolize conversation time with my personal problems and frustrations.  I still do this at times... mostly with my Mom and a very few select others.  This is totally new to who I am and I like it, but it is also a difficult change to endure in because it is NOT natural to Tori.  I still have a tendancy to monopolize with vocalization (talking)  communication opportunities when I'm around other adults.  But not because I feel selfish (which I know I did in the past), but, rather, because I just want to talk to other adults and share stuff that I don't get to share as much as I'd like.  Or to use big grow-up words as often as this woman wants to use em.  (Men have far fewer words to use each day and often use more than they would like, while women have MANY words they want to use and, especially those who stay home full-time, rarely use them all up on a regular basis!)  There is still selfishness in my desire to talk because I don't usually get to, I know it and I know I need to work on this character flaw.  I am.  Recognition of a problem/flaw is the first step to change, right!?  :)  It's just so wonderful to share things (mostly good stuff) and hear responses in real-time!  ^_^

In the past, during a time like my most recent bout with negative circular thinking, I would've verbally vomited here and to anyone else who would hear me.  I am striving to change.  Yet, I think it important to share the trouble from my current perspective because I am a frail woman full of problems and I would NOT want to give anyone the impression that I think I'm not simply because I tend to share mostly positive stuff anymore.  :)  I truly am trying to be and tend to be mostly positive anymore, but I have my down days just like anybody!

So, Jess and I had this arguement before I went to Louisiana.  Yes.  It's been a WHILE!  July 13, I think, is when I left for that trip and the arguement started about 5 days before that.  Anyway... the fussing and frustration was, eventaully, resolved and satisfactorily.  I felt quite good about things.  And then I went on the trip.  I did try to keep us in regular contact with Jess and doing Devotionals as a family and whatnot, but it was far more difficult than the last time the kiddos and I went on a trip.  Then it came time for me to return home.  I was not feeling excited... I even felt some dread of it.  Because of that arguement I mentioned above.

16 hours to think, given the feelings I felt when I depared, is not a good thing.  I'm sure the lack of sleep contributed.

Family visited.  Jess said something that was just one of those things he probably shouldn't  have said while my brothers and their families were visiting.  And from there I just felt the full return of all the negative feelings attached to the last two big arguements we'd had.

Anyway.... Basically, I was having unkind, intollerant, and even some uncalled-for thoughts about my husband.  I was unforgiving.  I refused to forgive.  I felt justified in my unforgiveness even though I knew, in my heart, that I was wrong.  I hardened my heart and stiffened my neck against the whispers that were telling me exactly how wrong I was.  I'm so thankful the Lord didn't give up on me!!!

The only thing that has ever worked well to get me out of the negative circular thinking is God.  He's always there and willing to help us with our silly little efforts to learn to walk with Him!  And I know, truly, that I'm not even to the 'drunken baby' stage of my spiritual toddlerhood!  (Don't you LOVE that analogy!??)

I used to feel stuck in the muck of those negative circular thoughts.  I sorta did again these past couple weeks.  Honestly, though, it was chosen... as it always is.  I was just much more consciously rebellious this time around.  I'm so glad and so very thankful that God gives us ample opportunities to change... and provided our Savior that we may endure in change through Him and hope for a future in Their presence!

There are lots of other ways I used to be that I'm able to see great growth (especially during difficult times).  But these suffice for now.  :)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Even Though I'm Not Worthy....

I know I am less than the dust of the earth because the dust will go when Father says.  I dicker and dither and don't right away.  I'm a fallible human, for sure!

Even though I know I'm not worthy, I know the Lord loves me and I'm so grateful!!!  I'm so grateful for the ways He shows me of His Love!  And how He desires to help me look up from the muck of life through which I'm trudging to see the beautiful sky, clouds, birds, rainbows, and all other wonderful things He has in store for my view when I stop focusing on the immediate mess.

As a result of the negative circular thinking of the month (or just less) after my LA trip, I was feelin blue.  Down and sad and all that jazz.

Father God was knocking with lovliness this last little while.  I know He was showing me of His Love that I might refuse to focus on the muck through which I walk and, rather, look to all else He has provided (and remember that the muck is fertilizer for the future!

Father showed me He loved me by inspiring my husband to drop in at the house to get a deposit envelope so he could mail his earnings AND take the time to apologize to me for something; on Friday (8-12).

Heavenly Father showed me He loved me when my friend (who I'd been trying to visit with for the preivious 4 days) was able to come visit and listen to me blubber about problems and talk "adult;" on Monday (8-15).

He showed me He loved me by inspiring my hubby called to thank me for my work as wife, Mama, homeschool administrator, housekeeper (and all other jobs I must fulfill) AND apologize for something.

Our Father showed me He loved me when two previous Sister missionaries and one Elder wanted to and then did come to visit me on Tuesday!

He showed me He loved me when He arranged things such that I got to go the temple in the morning and then spend a lot more time than I expected with a dear friend on Wednesday.

He showed me He loved me when He inspired another previous Sister Missionary to come by for a visit with her new husband!

These are some of the "bigger" things in my little life that I recognize as tender mercies of the Lord and ways that He is showing me that He is mindful of me.  He wants us all to feel of His Peace and Love.  "Men are that they might have joy."  It's true today as ever!

I know, of course, that The Atonement is THE greatest gift for which we all should be endlessly grateful!  These little things are simply special for my little life.  :)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Thankful Thursday, Week of August 11 to 17, 2011

Thursday, August 11, 2011:  I'm thankful for time at home during which I was able to get a good bit of writing done.

Friday, August 12, 2011:  I'm thankful for food from my church.  It was our last pick-up.  We sure are going to miss seeing Brother Kelly every other Friday!

Saturday, August 13, 2011:  I'm thankful for the time I was able to write another Lesson of Life that needed to get out TODAY.  I'm also glad I was able to attend a sweet lady's baptism.  I was able to talk to her hubby and hopefully he'll be working for Jessie soon!

Sunday, August 14, 2011:  I'm thankful for John.  Today is his birthday.  (HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dad (PopPop)!!!!!)  John is extremely important to me.  He is my Jessie's Dad.  Without John living his life the way he did, my Jessie could not be the man he is.  Although Jessie is not as perfect as many believe him to be, he is an amazing man.  So, Dad G., I'm SO grateful to and for you!!!  I'm grateful for the son you've raised to be my man and Daddy to our babies.  WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

Monday, August 15, 2011:  I'm thankful for another trip to Orlando to meet the other exchange student I will be helping and her family.  Another Norwegian.  How fun!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011:  I'm thankful for Visiting Teaching and the opportunities to spend time with wonderful ladies that the assignment to visit teach create!  I love the ladies the Lord has assigned me to be friends with!!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011:  I'm thankful for my Jessie's consistency in helping me and willingness to help me attend the temple regularly!  I'm thankful for a first 4-H meeting with wonderful ladies and their kiddos!  We're going to have such a good time!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Thankful Thursday Week of August 4 to 10

Thursday, August 4, 2011:  I'm thankful for a dear friend who loves me enough to speak her mind and fortify me in belief in myself and Faith AND utter words straight from the Lord to challenge me to do that which I've neglected doing for fear and lack of self-confidence.

Friday, August 5, 2011:  I'm thankful for some exciting progress in writing a story I've been only half-trying to write for many years now.  It's moving right along so far!  ^_^  Now I just need to make time to SIT and write on it as much as possible each day!

Saturday, August 6, 2011:  I'm thankful for whispers of the Holy Spirit* that prompted me to check on flight info for one of my exchange students.  She arrives the 8th! and I didn't find out until today!

Sunday, August 7, 2011:  I'm thankful for Fast and Testimony meetings, wonderful lessons prepared by diligent teachers, sweet kiddos who love the Lord and want to do the right, and an awesome dinner with Missionaries of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

Monday, August 8, 2011:  I'm thankful for the sweet woman my brother Ben married and their lovely and amazing eldest daughter.  Kirsten turns THREE today!  I can hardly believe it.  She's one of the "quads" born within 5 months of one another.  My Tea has a slew of cousins within a few months of her age!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRSTEN!!!!  We LOVE you!!!!  I'm also grateful for the opportunity to meet one of the foreign exchange students I'm responsible for communicating with for my job with ICES and her host family.  It's going to be such a fun year!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011:  I'm thankful for my Dad.  Today is his birthday.  (HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dad!!!)  I'm glad he's here for another one.  My Dad would've died a few years ago if he was HIS Dad.  I'm hopeful that we may grow closer and build bridges of understanding and love with this time granted us all with him (you), granted us of the Lord!  I'm also grateful for the time I was able to spend with a dear friend and her children today.  We are going to be a 4H club together!!!  I'm so excited for my kids AND for the gift of spending more time with my friend!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011:  I'm thankful for quiet days at home to write some more on the story the Lord is urging me to get out of my head.

*The Holy Ghost (Holy Spirit) and Personal Revelation
AND a talk by Elder Bednar about the Holy Spirit

Friday, August 5, 2011

Thankful Thursday, Week of July 28 - August 3, 2011

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Thursday, July 28, 2011:  I'm thankful for quiet days at home to rest and try to get things in order.

Friday, July 29, 2011:  I'm thankful for the food we have been blessed to receive of the church and thankful for the comfort, peace, and nourishment it has provided through this time of difficulty in joblessness and underemployment.

Saturday, July 30, 2011: I'm thankful for a quiet day at home.

Sunday, July 31, 2011:  I'm thankful for gifts from a sweet family as they prepare to move.  I'm thankful for the opportunity to spend time with our Ward Family and enjoy food together.  I'm so grateful for the blessing of working with a friend on her life story!

Monday, August 1, 2011:  I'm thankful for the job Jessie started today.  I'm glad he's happy with it and pray it will be a long-time position.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011:  I'm thankful for the lunches we've enjoyed with Jess during his break between shifts at work.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011:  I'm thankful for the opportunity to watch the last Harry Potter movie.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

A Mother's Ten Commandments

Thou shalt know that God selected these children for you, and you for them, for a special reason.


Thou shalt remember how to be a child again–laugh, play, sing, dance, pretend.

Thou shalt not worry about messy faces and places.

Thou shalt pray daily for patience, energy and strength.

Thou shalt affirm thy children’s feelings, but be firm with their behavior.

Thou shalt instill in them respect for you, themselves and others.

Thou shalt give thy children roots–grounding them in faith and tradition.

Thou shalt give thy children wings–teaching them how to fly on their own.

Thou shalt show and tell them you love them every day.

Thou shalt entrust them into the Father’s hands.

Found on: http://www.naturalfamilyawareness.com/parenting/ and LOVE it!  Wanted to find it easily so decided to post it here.  Now... bed.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Thankful Thursday: Week Beginning July 20

Thursday, July 20, 2011:  I'm thankful for a day at home to prepare for the arrival of my brothers and their families.

Friday, July 21, 2011:  I'm thankful for the gift of having SO much of my family in my home.  What a joy!!!  I'm grateful for the cool weather brought by the rain.

Saturday, July 22, 2011:  I'm thankful for the time we were all able to spend at one of the Springs near us.  It was FUN.  I'm also thankful for the dinner my brothers treated us to at a local BBQ place which we enjoyed thoroughly.

Sunday, July 23, 2011:  I'm thankful for my family's visit!  I'm glad I was able to get to church, though I did miss taking the Sacrament.  I'm also thankful for the visit we enjoyed with our new Elder and Sister Missionaries.

Monday, July 24, 2011:  I'm thankful for a quiet day during which I rested and cleaned and prepared for FHE at Gramy and Grampy's house.

Tuesday, July 25, 2011:  I'm thankful for a quiet day spent all at home.  It was so nice to not worry about leaving or anyone coming all day.  YEAY!  I'm grateful for Jessie's desire to be of service to others.  He worked for two households and performed many good works.  I'm grateful for his Christ-heartedness.

Wednesday, July 26, 2011:  I'm thankful for the meeting Jess had with our new boss.  I'm just sorry that we have to wait until Monday for him to start.  Just another delay in being able to discontinue church assistance.  I'm grateful that we've had it and been ABLE to have it, but I want us to pay our own way again!

Thankful Thursday: Week Beginning July 14

Thursday, July 14, 2011:  I'm thankful for a quiet day of rest while my girls enjoyed movies.  I'm grateful to have had some time to spend with my Aunt Barbara.  She is a TREASURE!

Friday, July 15, 2011:  I'm thankful for the time I was able to spend with my Mom at her Mom's house.

Saturday, July 16, 2011:  I'm thankful for the Memorial for my Grandpa.  It was a good and enjoyable event.

Sunday, July 17, 2011:  I'm thankful for a sweet girl named Molly.  She was the only one in the Ward I was visiting to approach me and introduce herself.  SUCH a kind young woman!  I'm grateful for the opportunity to drive around with my Mom and see the town of her youth.

Monday, July 18, 2011:  I'm thankful for the opportunity to have a good talk with my youngest sibling (brother) and then an outing to New Orleans with all my brothers and their families.  What a GOOD day.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011:  I'm thankful for an ejoyable and restful day at my Uncle Mark and Aunt Barbara's house.  It was a pleasure to be in their home.  I'm SO grateful to two of my brothers, their hard work and the gifts they provided to repair and renew my van.  My van now has tires fit for travel, windows that go up and down at the touch of a button, and buttons that are situates properly in the door.  They did so much for me and my family in their desire to help me/us and there are not enough words of thanks to explain my gratitude!  I'm grateful for the time I was able to spend with my sisters-in-love and talk and share and hopefully repair some of the pain of life.

Wednesday, July 19, 2011:  I'm thankful for a quiet evening at home to rest from the LONG trip home.  I left Tuesday night around 9pm (10pm FL time) and got hom around 1:10pm Florida time.  It was a rough trip.  Thankfully the trip TO Louisiana was MUCH easier!

I'm so grateful to all those in my family who joined us for our morning and evening Devotionals.  It is STILL a tremendous joy to me... the feelings of being bound in Unity and Love with those who joined to worship our Lord and Savior with us during those few days/times we had together.  THANK YOU!!!!

Thankful Thursday Week of July 7, 2011

Thursday, July 7, 2011:  I'm thankful for busy and productive days.  I'm grateful for a phone call and a subsequent gift of something I need and something I radomly thought would be nice to have!  :)  I'm glad for the girls' first rabbit business purchase!  I'm thankful for the opportunity to attend a dear friend's baby shower.  :)

Friday, July 8, 2011:  I'm thankful for difficult times and the blessings that result from them.  I'm grateful that the girls have reason to trust me more as their business manager and hope that they will abide the lesson in the future!  I'm grateful for the opportunity to better understand promptings of the Holy Spirit.

Saturday, July 9, 2011:  I'm thankful for a good Orange-ade Stand day... spur of the moment to make it two for the week even though we were rained out the day before.  I'm grateful to be able to make it for the end of two sweet girls' baptisms!

Sunday, July 10, 2011:  I'm thankful for a really amazing Bishop!  I'm grateful for sweet sisters in Relief Society!!

Monday, July 11, 2011:  I'm thankful for conflic resolution and the prayers of a friend.  Peace IS priceless!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011:  I'm thankful for a quiet day at home before my trip to Louisiana.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011:  I'm thankful for the opportunity and gift of the blessing of going to Lousiana for a family reunion/memorial.  (We leave/left around 9pm.)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Thankful Thursday Week of June 30, 2011

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Thursday, June 30, 2011:  I'm thankful for the rain!  I'm thankful for a day at home to do lots of things.  I'm grateful for Jessie's work.  I'm so glad Ria LOVES baking class so much.  She is progressing REALLY well now!  I'm so pleased.  :)

Friday, July 1, 2011:  I'm thankful for all the wonder customers the girls enjoyed today.  Ms. Alena, Mr. Gale, and Mr. Bill in particular because they each came by twice.  Ms. Chelsea was their first customer and SO kind.  We also enjoyed visits from four neighbors (two couples), which surprised and pleased us all.  We are so thankful for the generosity and encouragement of strangers, neighbors, and friends!  Ria and I stayed up late to place her order for homeschool supplies.  She is VERY excited to have a new package of study materials arriving before too long.  Her greatest excitement is over her Science: Anatomy and Physiology (for the young crowd) by Apologia Science.

Saturday, July 2, 2011:  I'm thankful for the energy I felt which enabled me to get my house more in oder in preparation for the Sabbath.  It feels GOOD to come home to an orderly home!

Sunday, July 3, 2011:  I'm thankful for a wonderful Bishop who fit us in without advance notice.

Monday, July 4, 2011:  I'm SO thankful to be born in the USA.  I'm grateful for the freedoms I'm ABLE to take for granted, but which I also strive to be mindful of and work to protect.  I'm grateful for service men and women who become the property of the USA so that we may remain free.  I pray God's guidance and protection to all our leaders and EVERY person here that we may continue to enjoy the freedoms our forefathers worked so hard to preserve for us!  I'm thankful for the opportunity to spend some time with my Ward Family.  AND I'm blessed beyond measure to feel so loved by all of my family when I extend my hand in need.  Family ROCKS!  ^_^

Tuesday, July 5, 2011:  I'm thankful for a meeting with my Bishop on Sunday, which has relieved me of some burden and decreased some heart-achey-ness.  I'm thankful for the opportunity to speak with someone I met via a Craigslist Ad... someone who already feels like a friend.  :)

Wednesday, July 6, 2011:  I'm thankful for the customers who stopped at the girls' Orange-ade Stand.  We had a good time!  :)

Friday, July 1, 2011

Today

My girls have completed their 9th week of their Orange-ade Stand.  They are pleased with it and excited to continue.  I think Ria is particularly happy about it lately because it means she gets to have more time working on her baking class.  She LOVES to bake so far!  She's graduated out of cake mix cookies AND peanut butter cookies.  She'll probalby move on to some sort of rolled out cookie dough next.  She's also close to finished with muffins (from scratch) and bread (kneaded in the Kitchen Aid, though).  She's making SUCH good progress!!!
Today was a good day at their Orange-ade Stand.  They had a number of repeat customers who came for the first time today and then came back again.  :)  What fun for all of us!  Two couples of our neighbors dropped by and frequented the girls' Stand.  That was a treat, too.

Ria and I spent some time tonight working on the Homeschool Supplies order.  Ria is SO excited that she's been able to choose her books!!  She's going to study Anatomy and Physiology for Science.  That is the subject over which she is most excited.  She's also going to be doing Math, History (Ancient Romans), Spanish, Piano, Poetry, Grammar, and Business and Economics (via their Orange-ade Stand and other businesses to follow).  So, we are all excited about new books to arrive in the next couple weeks!  :)

I'm thinking a bit about how the Lord uses difficulties to make us what He would have us be.  I'm sure this is, in large part, because I'm feeling the "grind" of some of my own difficulties.

There's this comparison of us to a clay pot in the master potter's hands.  I'm sure you've heard it before.  Our Lord forms us and then places us in a fire (kiln) to finish us.  To test whether we are finished or not, he takes us out of the kiln and thumps us.  If we thud, we are put back in the fire to finish.  When we are finished, He will thump us and we will sing.  To my way of thinking, the "sing" is referring to literal singing in praise, but also simply to thankfulness for the test or thump.

I don't know about you, but it seems like maybe I get all screwy when I'm put in the fire.  So Father God takes me out and sees that I'm not right (formed as He wanted me to be), so He drops me to the ground to smash me up, then picks up those pieces and proceeds to grind me into powder so that he can add water,stir me into the correct consistency and then proceed to begin anew the process of forming (spinning on a wheel as in the movie Ghost or building me via slabs or coils or whatnot).  Perhaps this is a bit extreme... but it definitely feels like it fits in these last few weeks.

Either that OR perhaps I just keep on NOT singing right when He takes me out of the fire, so then He puts me into hotter and hotter fires... probably that's more correct.  That's more reasonable, for sure.  But it sure FEELS the other way lately.

I'm also feeling frustrated about other people's opinions when expressed as if they are THE way rather than an opinion.  I was just told today that every child needs to go to public school so that they could be socialized.  I gave my opinion in return.  Of course, though, I was wrong because I'm "so young."  Seriously?  Well, I have news for anyone who thinks I'm wrong for my children in our family... in essence, you are saying our God is wrong because ultimately HE is the reason we homeschool.

It would certainly be MUCH easier in SO many ways to put our children in public school.... but every time I have asked our God, He has directed that we should continue on course: homeschool.  And so I do and will.

These children do NOT suffer with or from any socialization problems or issues.  They are able to be far more social than most children in public schools.  They do not sit locked in a desk for somewhere around 6 hours each day; required to be silent and work.  They are not threatened with silent lunches when the lunch room gets too loud (though I do require a quiet time each day, but that is because I know my children need naps and/or alone time). 

My greatest concern over other people's opinions is that when they are expressed the way the one was today, they obviously think I am doing something WRONG.  And in my experience with such individuals, they want to prove to me how wrong I am.  :(  I do hope that this particular person is just expressing their opinion in a strong manner and will NOT try to hurt me or my family to prove me/us wrong.  Another example of the increase in the heat of my fire lately.  And, honestly, this isn't one of the greater of the increases in temp!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Thankful Thursday Week of June 23, 2011

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Thursday, June 23, 2011:  I'm thankful for a day at home without outside obligations.  I'm grateful for my girls hard work and their tolerance of me on my bad-mama days.

Friday, June 24, 2011:  I'm thankful for all the sweet guys and one sweetie lady who stopped to buy some orange-ade and other goodies from my girls today.  :)  They made some good money and had some really good experiences.  It's SUCH a pleasure to fascilitate this learning environment for my girls!!!  I'm SO grateful for the work Jess was able to occupy himself with today (working for a friend) and earning some money.

Saturday, June 25, 2011:  I'm thankful for the work Jess was able to do.  I'm grateful for the sweet friends who are using him as much as they can (and maybe even a little more)!

Sunday, June 26, 2011:  I'm thankful for a wonderful Ward family, for wonderful hugs (especially one from a dear sister I Visit Teach!), and wonderful Sisters who are so very supportive and loving.

Monday, June 27, 2011:  I'm thankful for a sister.  She had her birthday today and I cannot remember how old she turned... either 28 or 29...  I was either preggie with my #1 or had only 1 one year old at those ages respectively.  She has 2, exactly two years apart and is an amazing woman!  I'm thankful for the work Jessie was able to do to earn money today.  I'm so grateful for those of my Sisters who were able to come over and help in specific ways to lift up my hanging hands.  Because I only just learned some upsetting news, I'm especially grateful for their presence and loving service.  I'm thankful for the understanding and compassion of others of my Sisters who go to Park Day for forgiving me my double booking myself.  I'm not with it, ladies.  That's all there is to it.  I'm thankful for FHE with Gramy and Grampy Marks.  Their FHEs rock!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011:  I'm thankful for the sweet reception we received when we called to wish an Uncle a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!  We hope it was a joyful day!!!  I'm grateful for the blessing of being able to help a friend with something she cannot physically do herself.  Today it was particularly special and gratifying to be of service after feeling SO needy and being SO served yesterday!  I got to spend lots of time with my friend, which is a huge gift to me!  I'm grateful to know of some of the inner workings of Ward leadership who have worked together to Love one of our own by providing temporally.  It's such a gift and blessing to me to know SOME of the work of those leaders AND to know their effect on the wonderful person who received of their Love!  I'm so GLAD and grateful that Ria enjoys baking classes with me SO much.  I'm beginning to feel a renewal of my enjoyment and even Love of baking (and kitchen creating) that I experienced as a young woman as a result of my sweet Ria joyful Kitchen demeanor!!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011:  I'm thankful for the kindness of strangers and some who are becoming friends.  We had FOUR repeat customers today and are beginning to learn their names.  What FUN to enable my girls to have a business!  They are blossoming in totally new ways and SO excited about their prospects.  :)  I'm thankful for Jessie's hard work.  He found a spot where he will be able to collect wood.  Right now (as of today's work), he has collected enough wood to get another couple fence panels up AND build out some (if not all) of the girls' first rabbit hutch.  HOW EXCITING, right!??  :)

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